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I'm not on hiatus okay.
Have been online like almost everyday yeah, but no time to blog.
Grandma just passed away last week.
Spent the whole week, busy with the wake & rituals.
The burning of the coffin is still explicitly etched in my mind.
I can see the fires blazing & burning everything away.
As we viewed from the viewing hall, screams & sniffs were heard as the coffin was slowly pushed into the incinerator by the machine.
All gone, in that second when the fire shows itself.
All burned up. Only bones remain.
But no, our love for her will never get burned up.
I cried & cried & cried.
Even on the bus, I kept on crying.
I'm considered the only grandchild that stayed with her.
She watched me grow up.
Right from the cradle till now.
Although we don't stay together, but grandma is always asking for me, my aunt says.
She says I'm grandma's favourite grandchild.
& yet I'm not there when she passed away.
Nobody's there. She's alone in the cold hospital room with the maid.
That's it, we didnt even get the chance to see her. For the last time.
I asked my dad if he cried.
He said, why cry. Grandma has already reached her age.
She have so many grandchildren & great grandchildren.
She is already very fortunate to live till 84.
And it's better for her to go, then suffer everyday, with needles poking everywhere.
Yes, Grandma, rest in peace.
I believe you are going to a place better.
Much better than this cruel world.
Emo post :X
Another bad news: Wasn't selected for taiwan trip D:
Liwen says those selected are mostly a little poor, who needs subsidies.
Unfair unfair :/
It's okay lah, b/cos I saw the newspapers recently saying that those who are monkeys, this year isn't a good year to travel overseas.
Don't know if I shld believe. But perhaps this is a sign.
Oh well, stay in Singapore.
WORK WORK WORK. EARN EARN EARN $$$ :D
